Well. Here goes attempt #2 at making a blog work. The first no longer exists…not even sure of the name anymore, but it’s of little importance. It was only a few posts in depth and almost completely nonsensical, if you’re curious you didn’t miss much.
So. Why am I here? There’s no simple answer to that question, but the straw that broke the camel’s proverbial back is Thunderf00t. Specifically his latest dealings with both the Westboro Baptist Church and Ray Comfort (Round 2). I simply can’t imagine having the fortitude to willingly subject myself to almost 20 minutes of raging, battleaxe feces that was the older woman in the Westboro video (watch if you can stomach it) and nearly twice that long talking with a snake the likes of Ray Comfort. Thunderf00t did this while remaining calm & courteous. I don’t know how he did it. I was intensely frustrated just watching the exchanges, were I in his place there probably would’ve been a small mushroom cloud before long. Amazing. If he can throw himself into that kind of bizzaro-world then the least I can do is attempt to add my voice to the cause of reason over fundamentalist religion and all the insanity it brings with it…Not really sure if that’s what you’d intended or hoped for TF, but here I am. For what it’s worth.
Add my name to the list of the godless*. Schedule my crucifixion for 11:00, but not before I’ve had my tea you bastards!
I figure I’ve been an atheist since my mid teens for sure, and slowly losing my religion for a number of years before that. Part of it having to do with my need to ask questions and a distaste for lies. Part of it has to do with being exposed to religion in the first place and watching the stark difference between the preaching and the actions of those who supposedly are playing by those rules. The rest basically boils down to that all too familiar feeling that you get when the truth shines through, everything lines up, and you don’t like what you see. You want to look away, back to what was familiar and safe…but it no longer makes sense, and any comfort it once brought is now hollow…and you can’t ignore that either.
Slowly, that sting of betrayal eases and you can move on. Time really does heal wounds…not sure about all, but it can mend a good many. It’s only been in recent years that I can say that I’m an atheist with conviction but I’m once again comfortable in my own skin and how I’ve arrived at these conclusions. Hopefully articulating them will get easier as time goes on.
It seems that most of the science blogs / websites I read are based in the U.S. and of course with the states comes the religious right. I really didn’t appreciate just how bat-shit insane it could get down there until the last couple years. It frustrates me. It’s been gnawing at me for a while now, I’d frequently get up from the computer ranting to myself – often times with arms flailing, but only mouthing the words…must’ve been quite a sight, my fiancé gets a kick out of it at least.
I can’t take it anymore, I need to express myself, somehow, in a semi-public forum and this is as good a start as any. I hope that future posts will be better constructed/articulated, but with a blog named Thought Carnage, that could be a tall order. Let’s see how the experiment works out.
*It’s funny, all that programming/brainwashing you receive as a child is hard to shake off, I’ve actually had to teach myself to not spell god with a capital ‘G’ – and sometimes I catch myself reverting to bad habits. Tsk Tsk.